Thanks pal, i do honestly appreciate the thoughts and the sentiment.
You's are all my best friends and i love yas.

Fell asleep with my patch on last night,
Didnt fall asleep till after 4 in the morning but it was still there wben i woke up.

Yeh im not drinking anything except cups of tea, fresh orange and occasional smoothies.

Im avoiding the pub and people i know from there.
Basically im just giving myself the best chance i can to stay off them altogether.
Been over a week now (slightly)

Thanks pal.

Iv not even tried vaping pal, iv just let my girlfriend use it and its cut her down to like 4 or 5 a day.
(from 25+ a day)

Im just persevering with the patches and inhilator for now but i have just enough to see out this week so i need to see my gp and get more.

Its hard but iv not had one since i entered hospital a week back on Friday so im proud of myself.
Still get cravings a bit but i just play with the inhilator or have a suck on it, not quite the same but im coping with it.

My cousin david tried to overdose the wednesday after i got released from hospital and made himself rather sick and failed miserably.
Unfortunately the tablets he took sat in his stonach and gave him liver failure and kidney failure so he was rushed in to hospital on the friday after (may have been thursday actually not sure).
Went up to see him at Blackburn hospital last night and he has tubes coming from his neck filled with blood, hes having transfusions to wash out the bad blood or something its weird the way he explained it.
He said to keep my spare room spare for him but theres no way i could cope with him too as well as try and get myself back to semi normal.

Everything else seems to be going ok so far though i haven't been having the smoothies for a few days, il have one today but i think they may be too thick and contributing to my stomach aches.

Should have a sony 4k tv coming today and an air fryer so im trying my hardest to stay awake and im really tired.
But once the girlfriend is back i can go sleep for a little while hopefully.

Git a few games to knock of my 52 in a year thing and girlfriend bought me streetfighter ae yesterday and pre-orderd my sotc.

So things are going better than i hoped i think.
Just need to keep at it.

digi wrote:

Iv not even tried vaping pal, iv just let my girlfriend use it and its cut her down to like 4 or 5 a day.
(from 25+ a day)

Im just persevering with the patches and inhilator for now but i have just enough to see out this week so i need to see my gp and get more.

Its hard but iv not had one since i entered hospital a week back on Friday so im proud of myself.
Still get cravings a bit but i just play with the inhilator or have a suck on it, not quite the same but im coping with it.

My cousin david tried to overdose the wednesday after i got released from hospital and made himself rather sick and failed miserably.
Unfortunately the tablets he took sat in his stonach and gave him liver failure and kidney failure so he was rushed in to hospital on the friday after (may have been thursday actually not sure).
Went up to see him at Blackburn hospital last night and he has tubes coming from his neck filled with blood, hes having transfusions to wash out the bad blood or something its weird the way he explained it.
He said to keep my spare room spare for him but theres no way i could cope with him too as well as try and get myself back to semi normal.

Everything else seems to be going ok so far though i haven't been having the smoothies for a few days, il have one today but i think they may be too thick and contributing to my stomach aches.

Should have a sony 4k tv coming today and an air fryer so im trying my hardest to stay awake and im really tired.
But once the girlfriend is back i can go sleep for a little while hopefully.

Git a few games to knock of my 52 in a year thing and girlfriend bought me streetfighter ae yesterday and pre-orderd my sotc.

So things are going better than i hoped i think.
Just need to keep at it.

Sorry to hear about your cuz. You should feel proud of not touching cigs. In a few weeks you won't even miss it.

Well done, Davie. I’m finding it hard enough to not buy games, never mind dealing with a genuine addiction.

You're doing good. You might find you get sudden cravings out of the blue months down the line, but by then they only last a few seconds and are quickly forgotten about. It'll be nearly a fortnight before you know it, which is a mighty fine milestone. It gets easier from there but like I said, you'll be caught off guard every now and then, and usually when it feels like it's getting easier. They don't last long though. I think half of giving up is simply forgetting you used to smoke.

Well done. I think.

Sorry guys.
Cabin fever were setting in so i went out to see my mate dj a hip hop night, needless to say he didn't expect me turning up and loved the fact i did.

Managed to drink 5 pints and went thru 9 lollys,
Inhilator is truly dead and neads some refills.
(got told were i can buy some so il get some today).

Still never smoked,
Im gucking proud of myself.

Vela wrote:

Not smoking whilst drinking is quite the achievement from what I understand. Well done.

Thank you pal.

Keep it going Davie. You're a rock star. Without the fags of course.

Nice one davie!

Iv had a bit of a cold the last couple of days so my nose, chest and throat haven't been right good.
I also didn't have 2 of my tablets for last night and this morning as pharmacy messed up my prescription and i should be collecting them today.

My sense of smell has definitely improved for better or worse and iv had terrible flatulence becouse of medication.

I could also taste blood last night and felt my chest were a little tight, not sure if these were phantom symptoms becouse i was paranoid about being down 2 of my tablets for today and last night but made sleep harder to get.
(may have gave my self the cold while out on friday)

Got appointments out the wazoo today too.
Smoking clinic for to see if i can get more patches and refills for my inhilator.
I have 1 patch left for today and my inhilator ran out two days ago so i just kept using the same dead one in it till late last night when i started craving but was hust getting a horrible taste and a dry mouth and cough.
Took the refill thing out and just rested the empty inhilator in my mouth sucking air thru it and playing with it in my hands.

I also have to go for blood tests today to see how im doing and i may have a damaged liver function from previous years that i never had checked.
(im a bit scared of this)

Recieved a letter on friday saying the cardiac team have been trying to phone me for the last two weeks too so i rung them back and left my girlfriends number for them to get in contact with me.
They've phoned this morning while i was still asleep and are gonna ring later after doctors etc.
They should know better about my exercise and stuff i should do and how to step it up etc.
(thankfully)

Quite a bit of information there and iv not even talked about the two people who were family friends and died for varying reasons over the last week.
(madeline bell who died in her sleep on holiday in lanzarotiee with her man and little girl.
And jay jay taylor who was bottled and stabbed in the neck outside a pub by all round prick bad guy drug dealer jack costello)

Quite a lot going on in my shitty little existance and my moods are all over the place at the moment.
Il update with more later on.