I AM CAUGHT IN A WEB OF LIES.

Aye, because that sounds believable.

Nailed it.

That's only going to lead to disappointment when she recieves expensive jewellery on the big day instead of some sordid, slightly used issues of 'big jugs'

I don’t think I ever really want you to stop or change Pop but I’m never quite sure if your posts are becoming a bigger and bigger parody of your bnb self.

poprock wrote:

For all you know, my wife likes big jugs.

That's my point. If you tell her you were in the porno store buying a birthday present for her, you run the risk of her getting stoked for some good old filthy porn. And what are you giving her in reality? Some poxy piece of swanky jewellery.

I ask you, what woman wants jewellery over porn?

poprock wrote:

Any other ex, that would be fine. This one? Mrs poprock would instantly know that I’ve been buying jewellery. Ruins the birthday surprise.

Just say you were getting pissed with a different ex.

Don't tell her you are getting her big jugs, she might expect a trip to Harley Street

Day 1 of the new job today, flying down to head office in Brentwood, then in Cheltenham the rest of the week.

OF COURSE I didn't sleep in, miss my flight, have to book a later one at my expense then have to explain how much of a tit I am to my new boss.........

I can't even imagine a world where I'd miss a flight by sleeping in. Were you drinking?!

My gf is dropping more and more hints that she's ready to apply for jobs in different countries to get a position in her sector (fashion/e-commerce) and it just makes me anxious. Before, I'd leave everything behind in a heartbeat but now I'm not so sure. I think about being away from my friends and family and it does nothing but make me sad.
She's got a degree, she'll be fine finding a fulfilling path. I don't and I don't want to be in the same situation I am now (always broke, dead end jobs), just in a different country all alone with even less coping mechanisms at my disposal.

Then I calm down a bit and realise its obviously a huge opportunity and won't be for forever.

I dunno. Should I hurry myself up and apply for a quick IT or java/C++ course so I have at least something?

I'm just exhausted from feeling this way. Three weeks ago it was big convos about how we are saving for a mortgage here, now she's saying she's applied for stuff in Stockholm.

Brexit will have a bearing on this as well. You'll be in a better position even if you stay in the UK if you were to take something like that, but as Cinty says it may be necessary if you were to move abroad.

Heh.

I just don't know. The moving of goalposts is annoying me. She's had a convo with her pal who moved to Australia for a bit and here we are. And if I don't display anything other than complete enthusiasm tonight when she's over, I'll be hearing "don't settle for.." & "ambition" etc etc which will result in an argument. I couldn't give a fuck about learning java tbh.

I just think (and this plays into what I've seen discussed in the MH thread recently), I'm already just about mentally exhausted finding the capacity to be her support for her anxiety, which is caused by her workplace and social media, imo. I don't see it getting any better moving away, removing herself from her family and me being the only outlet. It feels so shit thinking with that much hypotheticals, but I can't see it not happening. And if that's my life waiting for me, whilst probably being a cleaner or a waiter or working in a shop, still skint just a different currency, then.... Why?

Yes, I see there's larger issues at play here. Apologies, just need to vent to get it out.

afgavinstan wrote:

Heh.

I just don't know. The moving of goalposts is annoying me. She's had a convo with her pal who moved to Australia for a bit and here we are. And if I don't display anything other than complete enthusiasm tonight when she's over, I'll be hearing "don't settle for.." & "ambition" etc etc which will result in an argument. I couldn't give a fuck about learning java tbh.

I just think (and this plays into what I've seen discussed in the MH thread recently), I'm already just about mentally exhausted finding the capacity to be her support for her anxiety, which is caused by her workplace and social media, imo. I don't see it getting any better moving away, removing herself from her family and me being the only outlet. It feels so shit thinking with that much hypotheticals, but I can't see it not happening. And if that's my life waiting for me, whilst probably being a cleaner or a waiter or working in a shop, still skint just a different currency, then.... Why?

Yes, I see there's larger issues at play here. Apologies, just need to vent to get it out.

You need to listen to your girlfriend, she is giving you good advice. If you are a waiter or shop assistant in Australia, and she is a professional, you will hav a much higher standard of life. You will have nicer summers, more opportunities. You could make something new happen. You will be able to go to Bali on holiday for a song, NZ skiing as well. Open your mind to it. Take a chance. Your girlfriend is an angel, mate. Don't miss out on the opportunity, support her.