So, work wise, it's been a pretty tumultuous year for me.
Start of 2020, I was at careco, about to get sacked because I wasn't hitting sales targets (which the showroom still isn't doing BTW). Then, I landed pretty much my dream job, back in casinos. Then in the summer, I got made redundant.

Fortunately, boozy was able to put me on to a courier company, working for them, working for dpd, because I couldn't afford the franchise startup costs.

And I fucking hated it.

Then another mate was able to get me a start with another company, subcontracted to DHL. More money, better shift patterns, had my own wee van, a good run, I loved it.

(there were a couple of other factors that improved my life around then, which are gone now, but that's for the mental health thread I think.)

Then DHL got rid of most of their subcontractors. Fucked again, with 10 hours notice.

But, a lad that had followed me from dpd to DHL (then got sacked for crashing 2 vans in 2 weeks) had started back at dpd, managed to get me in the door. That was 8 weeks ago.

And I honestly can't ever remember a time in my life where I've been so miserable. I'd spend all day driving around, looking for an opportunity for a fatal 'accident'. I was (still kinda am) completely at the end of my tether.

(again, there have been other factors contributing to my low as fuck mood, wrong thread though.)

So, today I quit. It was making me ill. My run was so tight, I literally didn't have time to eat. I've been getting by on 1 meal a day after work. It was degrading, having to piss in a bottle in the back of my van because I had no opportunity to park up and go into a shop. Besides, most shops won't let you use the toilets because of the pandemic. Nothing but stress, as it was a 'premium' route, my first 6 - 10 stops all had to be completed by 11am. But they'd hold me back in the depot till 10.25 am, and it's a 25 minute drive to the first stop. But if I failed any of the time windows, I'd be penalised. Only way to do it was to drive like nikki lauda on a promise. But if I break the law and get caught, dpd blame me. No win situation. And today, a complaint from a week ago was thrown at me, a road rage incident I literally know nothing about. But, I was to be stood down, no pay, until an investigation was completed. That was the last straw.

Luckily though, I've been offered a start elsewhere, and a really good mate (the lad that got me in with DHL, he was let go at the same time) is starting with them as well. If its to be believed, I'll set my own times, decide my own workload etc etc. Much better work life balance.

(oh aye, that was the other thing - guy I worked for put us all under the cosh to work 6 days a week, so ive barely seen my son. Work 6 days, have him the 7th, but I'm so fucked all I do is lie on the couch exhausted while he watches cartoons.)

But, as always with me, there's a catch. This new place don't supply vans, so i need to hire one. I'll be looking into it in more detail tomorrow. Hiring a van isn't the issue, it's the security deposit/month rental up front. Been quoted £600 by one firm, shopping around for others tomorrow. A mate has offered £200, he's viewing it as an investment into me starting up my own business. Just need to get figures and finalise costs so I can see how much I actually need.

Wish me luck badgers.