Over the years I've had various dreams: being a novelist (I even know the plot!), writing my own games, joining a games company, being a teacher, being an academic, ...

But now I'm a dad, with a mortgage.  So until my company IPOs or I do actually win the lotto, they ain't happening.  But I'm still hoping to keep the gaming knowledge ticking over so if some miracle does happen, or I come up with a genuinely good idea, there is hope of something crystallizing.  We shall see.

Cheer up Noxy.

Option 1, then do the long term one after developing your ID skills.  Then again, if you're settled you might lack impetus so a change of scenery might spur you on.  Risk and reward.  Fuck I dunno.

I've spent the last 8 years pretty much working at home - reading, writing, teaching. Now it's coming to an end and I probably have to locate some sort of academic job next year. The freedom has been magnificent, even though the money's been short.

Hoomanitees. I'm a Marxist social theorist, which is about as unemployable as you can get nowadays.

Hoomanitees. I'm a Marxist social theorist, which is about as unemployable as you can get nowadays.

Big congrats.

I wanna make robots.

What kind o robots Gurt?

http://youtu.be/X2Xo_w7vE50

Getting a passion has always been a difficulty for me. I'm clueless about my strengths and I've severely shot myself in the foot getting to 26 with no foundations. I'm giving languages a try for the first time later on this year with what's hopefully an in-depth course in French. If I find that I do well and enjoy it I'll consider trying my hand at more lingo's.

The plan beyond that is pretty vacant and I'd consider it a huge step in my life if I just obtain focus. I missed out going to university and I've always taken it to heart as in indication of failure, but then I see many of my friends who did fork out the money get humdrum jobs unrelated to their studies and I wonder just how useful modern higher education is, that old trope. Though part of me is just annoyed I missed the opportunity that is meeting large amounts of people of a similar age from all over the country/world.

As a creeping footnote I'm also concerned about the role my parent's health will play in the years to come as both my parents are divorced, never remarried and don't have partners. They had me fairly late and my dad is already 70 this year while my mother is only a year behind.

My expectations have been scaling down steadily since childhood while my abilities have been growing. My greatest ambition is that my expectatioms will converge with my abilities before I die.

That's my new ambition.

Seriously tho. I'm in a shit place since my ex left, I'm stuck in the flat that we were about to move out of, into a great house, most of her shit is still here, I look after my daughter for half the week and work the other half. All my ambitions are still there but I'm just too burned out to do much about them.

I've started writing recently so that's something.

I've done a couple of short children's stories and about 1/4 of a comedy screenplay. Proper low rent comedy that you'd expect someone like Adam Sandler to act in but with a biblical subtext.

My mum went to uni last year, and she's 55 i think. Studying Arabic at Exeter. I'm really pleased for her. She had me as a teenager and so never really had the chance to fulfill that side of her potential. The course is notoriously tough, but she's working really hard and is on track for a 1st. It's really never too late.

I'd love to do another degree, maybe one that isn't pointless this time.

I did GCSE astronomy. It was well easy at that level, but then most things are. Stars are cool, though.